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Post by Cloud on Jun 8, 2009 20:46:14 GMT -5
Cause Cloud decided he was gonna fully open up about everything, I though, hey, why not me. So, feel free to ask me whatever you like and I will try to answer it them best way I can!!!
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Post by sheik on Jun 9, 2009 14:11:29 GMT -5
so how's your love life going? anyone in mind?
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Post by Cloud on Jun 9, 2009 14:28:48 GMT -5
I'm not sure that I fully believe in love like I used to. It's just because I've yet to find someone (other then Ryan) who really loves me for who I am. Theres this guy were I live named James and he swears that I'm the sexyest person hes ever seen. But its just the way he said it to me which made me feel like he was lying his ass off. Who seriously laughs when you tell them something like that? But recently, I had a crush on Will my friend at times. It was so powerfuly it made me believe I really loved him, but now I just don't believe in love anymore or even try to put energy into finding it. I honestly believe some people are just meant to be alone. I mean, look at Tyra Banks. Shes so successful at what she does. Shes beautiful, smart, funny, very caring. Kind and sweet. A very charming personalitly, yet she don't got a man. And its funny cause any man back in the day would wanna get with Tyra. So I guess you can say I really don't have a love life. But I'm ok with that.
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Post by sheik on Jun 9, 2009 15:02:07 GMT -5
awh that sucks... Although I really disagree with the fact that some people are MEANT to be alone! first of all I don't think anyone is meant to do anything and things happen only because of our actions, not from an outside force "fate", God whatever choose your pick. Maybe the time hasn't come yet, but it will, and it's not a big deal if you stop trying because that's when that kind of stuff comes lol
so why did you and Ryan break up?
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Post by Cloud on Jun 9, 2009 20:49:13 GMT -5
Oh. So I take it you really don't believe in fate or destiny do you?
Me and Ryan, from what I recall, broke up about three times. The 1st time I beleve was because of what he was doing with his brothers. He told me about it after we started "going out" and I told him I was ok with it, but I really wasn't. The other two times, I just don't know why. We just had tons of fights for some reason. But I think the real reason we kept breaking up is because of my insecurites. I just never wanted Ryan to know what I looked like because I expected him to just dismiss me and get really disapointed that I wasn't the hot attractive stud he always dreamed for. Well, I don't know if thats what he dreamed for, but thats just what I assumed.
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Post by Cloud on Jun 9, 2009 20:54:33 GMT -5
I think if I told him I really wasn't ready for bf, then we would still be together. Cause we sorta rushed into things. But thats cause he begged me.
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Post by sheik on Jun 10, 2009 12:24:53 GMT -5
what he did with his brothers? what do you mean?
so u mean you never saw him and vise versa?
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Post by Cloud on Jun 10, 2009 14:01:58 GMT -5
He engaged in sexual activity with his brothers. I'm not exactly sure what they did. I do know they had anel though. But I don't know about what other stuff they did. One thing that sorta disturbed me was when he was having sex with one of his brothers one time, he imagined it was me and was calling my name. It was just shocking to here.
I never saw him in person, but he did send me two of his pictures. He never saw what I looked like. Only what he envisioned me as.
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Post by sheik on Jun 10, 2009 14:16:39 GMT -5
wow that's...different...
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Post by Cloud on Jun 10, 2009 16:54:21 GMT -5
Very!!
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