Post by Cloud on Feb 7, 2011 22:54:12 GMT -5
I think it's time I finally came clean about a lot of things here. This could be a long post, so bare with me. Also, Cloud suggested I do this. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I'll answer them all honestly.
First I would like to say that I'm sorry for driving away the two best members the club's ever seen. Rika's been here since the beginning, and Cloud's, well, just Cloud. But together, they have made huge contributions that can't go unnoticed.
Secondly, I want to talk about Gary. I'll just say now that he's completely fake. Cloud may not remember this, but when I first crated the persona, I immediately told him on messenger. I guess with all of Gary's "hiatuses", Cloud simply forgot. I created the Gary persona because I believed that he would bring the club closer together than I could being myself. I've always felt a little distant from all the members here (well, maybe not John or Kim, aka Trekkie, and Heather) but just about everyone I felt a bit distant too. So I thought if I created someone who was more like the majory(sp) of the members here, I could use him to bring everyone closer together. I felt like it worked for awhile till of course that whole drama started between me and Rika. I honestly should of just took myself away all together and kept pretending to be someone I'm not to please everyone, but something told me that I couldn't keep this up forever. Especially since I underestimated Cloud's tracking skills. So, I'm sorry for creating Gary and for all the connections he's made with everyone. It's kinda sad he isn't real. I think he would be a really cool person.
I'm also sorry if it seems like I'm becoming a dictator as Cloud puts it. I just want to be the best admin I can be. I think I'm going to need to be much more honest and wiser in my choices for staff. If I knew that I couldn't trust Rika to be staff here, I should of never gave her that privilege. I want Rika to know that I'm sorry for treating her unfairly. I doubted her ability to perform moderator duties, and unfairly punished her like a million times. I won't make that mistake again. She may not believe me, but I truly am sorry.
I can imagine that Sheik is hurt by what I said about her in my personal logs. It was clearly out of anger. I don't even remember why I called her those things. I really do think she's a sweet person, and everything I've said about her in her dedication thread is true from the heart. So I'm really sorry for making her distrust me and for compromising our relationship if is compromised at all.
Ok, so I'm not sure what else to say, so I'm ready to take questions and comments and all that jazz.
First I would like to say that I'm sorry for driving away the two best members the club's ever seen. Rika's been here since the beginning, and Cloud's, well, just Cloud. But together, they have made huge contributions that can't go unnoticed.
Secondly, I want to talk about Gary. I'll just say now that he's completely fake. Cloud may not remember this, but when I first crated the persona, I immediately told him on messenger. I guess with all of Gary's "hiatuses", Cloud simply forgot. I created the Gary persona because I believed that he would bring the club closer together than I could being myself. I've always felt a little distant from all the members here (well, maybe not John or Kim, aka Trekkie, and Heather) but just about everyone I felt a bit distant too. So I thought if I created someone who was more like the majory(sp) of the members here, I could use him to bring everyone closer together. I felt like it worked for awhile till of course that whole drama started between me and Rika. I honestly should of just took myself away all together and kept pretending to be someone I'm not to please everyone, but something told me that I couldn't keep this up forever. Especially since I underestimated Cloud's tracking skills. So, I'm sorry for creating Gary and for all the connections he's made with everyone. It's kinda sad he isn't real. I think he would be a really cool person.
I'm also sorry if it seems like I'm becoming a dictator as Cloud puts it. I just want to be the best admin I can be. I think I'm going to need to be much more honest and wiser in my choices for staff. If I knew that I couldn't trust Rika to be staff here, I should of never gave her that privilege. I want Rika to know that I'm sorry for treating her unfairly. I doubted her ability to perform moderator duties, and unfairly punished her like a million times. I won't make that mistake again. She may not believe me, but I truly am sorry.
I can imagine that Sheik is hurt by what I said about her in my personal logs. It was clearly out of anger. I don't even remember why I called her those things. I really do think she's a sweet person, and everything I've said about her in her dedication thread is true from the heart. So I'm really sorry for making her distrust me and for compromising our relationship if is compromised at all.
Ok, so I'm not sure what else to say, so I'm ready to take questions and comments and all that jazz.
